Essay on Lurve

So I sometimes post photo essays because I think it's fun. This morning I'm gonna change it up a bit and do a video essay on my evolving feelings about romance, ect. (And they are country music videos. Duh. Because that is what my life is.)

1. Thesis: As you change as a person, your thoughts and feelings on important topics change too. Every time I read a book, it's different not because the words are different but because I'm different.  The following examples will cite how my feelings on romantic partnership/love/sex/companions/boys/men/me/dating have changed over the last year and a half.

2. Summer 2012 - How I felt when I was sure, at some level, that this whole love thing was never gonna work out for me.

 Hunter Hayes - Everybody's Got Somebody but Me

(The caveat:  this song is a little too upbeat for that time of my life, but the lyrics get it.)


3. Spring 2013 - As I began to realize that  maybe it wasn't hopeless, I started to wish really really hard for it not to be hopeless. (As if the wishing, and not realizing would change it? Yeah, I know, silly.) But I wished for myself to have a chance at it.
At this point I also, somehow, got myself in a situation where all the men I had serious feelings for were very much taken.

The Band Perry -  Don't Let Me Be Lonely

4. Summer/Fall 2013 - All of a sudden, it all got a lot less sad. It was intense and not easy always, but it was also something to think about and not weep over. I had lots of crushes and I went for it in a way I hadn't ever before. I stopped moping so much.

Easton Corbin - Lovin You is Fun

5. Winter 2013 - How I'm feeling now. Because, really? Just fuck it. Fun is pretty much all that it needs to be about right now. So yes: red wine, please. Dancing, please. Skinny jeans and high heels and ridiculous situations, please. Because I'm 24 and won't be ever again.

Sugarland - Settlin

Sing it, Sugarland.