A Letter

Dear Circle Mirror Transformation Rehearsal Process,

I know we've only been together for a week, but I already feel like we have a strong relationship building. I like you and I think you like me and we haven't even gotten drunk together yet. 

Every day when you and I first see each other, we dance around like fools to "wake our bodies up." I put this in quotes because I don't believe this your actual intention, CMTRP. I think you have us dance around like fools just so I get the joy of seeing Allen, my director and Artist Rep's artistic director, dance. Because Allen dancing is pure joy. He smiles the whole time. I think you know this, CMTRP, and you set up this daily dance-a-thon just to show the world the sunshine that is Allen dancing. 

Then you and I play a variety of theater games and connect to our inner selves, which is not something I'm used to doing often, much less everyday. Sometimes this makes me feel awkward and sometimes I giggle obnoxiously because I feel awkward. To be honest, CMTRP, this is when I feel our relationship is a bit strained. This when I end up thinking about people who've hurt me, or people I'm afraid to lose. This is when I think about my grandfather or Liliana and this often makes me sad and sometimes I wish I wasn't with you, CMTRP. I usually need the break to get over this feeling.

After games, we get to work you and I. Work is definitely and undoubtedly what we're doing, but it falls into the category of fun as well. Allen and Beth and Val and Jason and Danielle and Richard and Stephanie and Caitlin and I are a silly bunch. We do silly things. Sometimes I write those things down, so I can better remember the good times when we hit a hard patch. Because, CMTRP, I know we will. I know that there will be days that I want to tear my hair out because you're being fussy. And I know there will be nights when I can't sleep because I have anxiety dreams over your props or your quick changes. I had those days with all my last Rehearsal Process boyfriends, and I know they're ahead for us too. But for now? For now, CMTRP, I'm liking you tons and I just wanted you to know. 

With affection,

your PA/ASM